The Unexpected Happened



I know that the 30 day poetry challenge is over but, since I was not able to complete the challenge as planned, I’m just going to keep writing as the mood strikes.

My father was very ill over the past nearly 3 weeks so I wasn’t able to write daily.

I was able to make a post on occasion as time allowed but most of my time was spent at his bedside. . . waiting. . .and waiting for the next doctor to assess my dad.

At the first hospital, he was seen by 8 different doctors.

They couldn’t reach a conclusion as to what was wrong.  Test after test after test with no resolution.

Finally, he was transferred to the University of Iowa Hospitals where countless doctors streamed through his room.

Eventually, a dual chamber pacemaker was placed.

To my dad this is the answer.

To his daughter, the nurse (me), I HOPE it’s the answer.

There were so many issues in the deterioration of his health that I’m not 100 percent convinced.  I am a cardiac nurse so I do have a little insight here.

For a while I wasn’t certain if he would even get through all that happened to him.  But, over time, he has regained some strength and his mentation is mostly back to normal.  I’m sure as he gets stronger that will only improve.

He is home now and tonight will be the first night he and my mom will be alone.  I only live 7 minutes away so I can be there at the drop of a hat.

It’s so hard to see your parents, the people who raised you, the people who were strong enough to see you through the challenges of childhood, who always knew how to fix everything, and be your biggest fans in such a vulnerable state.

I always thought that because my dad has emphysema, that is the way it would happen.

I have learned, because that is not what my dad was stricken so terribly with these few weeks, that we just never can predict what or when.

Take each day as it comes.

Cherish it.

I have learned that I didn’t even know what amazing friends and coworkers I have till now.  I will never again take them for granted.

Love and live to the fullest.

Life is full of traps.  Traps that keep you from realizing what the really important things are.

Dare to step off the hamster wheel and make the most of what you have while you have it.  Because it can be taken away in an instant.

Always expect the unexpected because it will eventually happen.



Slow Passing Time


April 23, 2014


Slow Passing Time

Time passes slowly

in the stiflingly hospital

Waiting on doctors


Frustration sets in

with no explanation for

the symptoms revealed